these words

I don't particularly care for this song, or at least the voice of the guy who sings it...but the words captivate me. For the last 3 days when I've gotten into the car to leave work, this song has been on the radio. K-Love 95.7! I think it must be something I need to hear from God.

In particular, this verse,
"God, You know where I've been
You were there with me then
You were faithful before
You'll be faithful again
I'm holding Your hand"

I do believe that God has been and continues to be so faithful to me and Matt. I know with all of my being that He has a plan and a future for us... One that we could not have imagined 2-3 years ago. Heck, one I cannot imagine or understand even now. But, my God is so good...and He has been so good to me. He continues daily to reveal Himself to me in simple, small ways...that are unmistakable. My prayer continues to be for the peace of God to swallow me up, so that when I am pulled down by life, by death, by the enemy....I know exactly where I am and who I am...and most of all...Who is FOR ME. Jesus. It all comes back to knowing He is all I need...and letting that be enough.

Mikes Chair, "Let the Waters Rise."
Don't know where to begin
Its like my world's caving in
And I try but I can't control my fear
Where do I go from here?

sometimes its so hard to pray
When You feel so far away
But I am willing to go
Where you want me to
God, I trust You



I will swim in the deep
'Cuz You'll be next to me
You're in the eye of the storm
And the calm of the sea
You'll never out of reach

God, You know where I've been
You were there with me then
You were faithful before
You'll be faithful again
I'm holding Your hand

There's a raging sea
Right in front of me
Wants to pull me in
Bring me to my knees
So let the waters rise
If You want them to
I will follow You
I will follow You
I will follow You

God Your love is enough
You will pull me through
I'm holding onto You
God Your love is enough
I will follow You
I will follow You

There is a room I dare not go...

it is full of silly lions, and zebras ...
all the things that I prepared for you
there’s a crib that lies empty
and a swing standing silently
diapers, creams, lotions and powder
blankets, shoes, tiny hangers and clothes

the pain is immense when I pass through this room
my heart is torn open again and again

so I rush past the door so that I don’t think about it
rush out the front door so I don’t think about it
rush to bed so I don’t think about it
rush...because the pain is too big

Everyday is a production, a play, and I’m just an actress
doing her best to smile and stand up straight

Oh God... Help me because I cannot help myself.

From a Jordin Sparks song :
made me think of how I’ve been feeling this week -

If I should die before I wake
it's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there

But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there

Glory baby

there will never be any words good enough for my sweet Rowan.
but these from the Watermark song 'Glory Baby' have deeply touched our souls.

Glory baby you slipped away as fast as we could say baby…baby..
You were growing, what happened dear?
You disappeared on us baby…baby..
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe until we’re home with you…
Until we’re home with you…

Miss you everyday
Miss you in every way
But we know there’s a
day when we will hold you
We will hold you
You’ll kiss our tears away
When we’re home to stay
Can’t wait for the day when we will see you
We will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you
‘till mom and dad can hold you…
You’ll just have heaven before we do
You’ll just have heaven before we do

Sweet little babies, it’s hard to
understand it ‘cause we’re hurting
We are hurting
But there is healing
And we know we’re stronger people through the growing
And in knowing-
That all things work together for our good
And God works His purposes just like He said He would…
Just like He said He would…

BRIDGE:
I can’t imagine heaven’s lullabies
and what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing, heaven is your home
And it’s all you’ll ever know…all you’ll ever know…